Since I’ve even logged onto my Tumblr. I feel like I should rant, so I’m gonna.
Recently I’ve slowly but surely become rather complacent with how things were going for me. I wasn’t happy with the status of my relationship. I didn’t have a job. I haven’t been enrolled in school. My friends were always there which was amazing, but It was obvious to me that I was missing something. Something essential. I was happy. But not content.
Just got out of a serious, long distance relationship. Not easy. At all. Nothing about it was ever easy. I wish it could have been what it should have been all along. But I guess now I’ll never know. I devoted a lot of time, and effort mentally and emotionally - It just wasn’t enough unfortunately. Things do happen for a reason. I’ve accepted the outcome and began moving on. It’s hard. I’m not there yet. But it’s time for some change.
So the past few weeks have been pretty different for me. Almost everything about my daily life has changed relatively drastically. I got re-hired at the UTPA Rec Center teaching swimming lessons which takes up a pretty good chunk of my afternoons now. I like my job, it’s fun, super laid-back and the pay is really good. Definitely glad some of my time is now devoted to working again.
I applied for a summer staff position at Camp Zephyr (a baptist summer camp near Corpus Christie) and got the job, so I’ve been making frequent visits over there over my weekends to work with the Retreat Season staff members while the camp hosts weekend retreats for smaller groups. That place has really always been a second home to me, and I’ve been aspiring to be a staff member for almost as long as I can remember going there. It’s a big deal for me to have the privilege to honor God through service at a place that I’ve loved my whole life. I’m excited for this summer with a full 10 week work period in front of me. The hours are long, tiring, and challenging, but rewarding all the same. It’s bittersweet. Stoked beyond belief about it, but saddened by the thought of missing out on all sorts of different summer activities with all my friends, family, and loved ones at home. I’ll think about all of you while I’m neck deep in a toilet scraping caked-on crap off the bowl in one of the public restrooms somewhere.
I’ve finally started my enrollment process for school which is exciting but stressful as well. I plan on moving to Austin in the fall to attend Austin Community College to pursue a degree as a Physical Therapist Assistant. Once I’ve landed a degree I’ll be working alongside my mother who owns and operates a Physical Therapy company and I will be co-owning her business which is definitely an immense opportunity to have that kind of resource right after college. Taking care of making sure that enrollment is all settled, and living arrangements have been made in a brand new big city that I know almost nothing about is daunting to say the least. Call me naive but I’m hoping for a rather stress free process coming into this.
I feel like tonight is a deep breath before a rapidly approaching dive… A calm air before a storm of warm and cool wind.
